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She flies with her own wings

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fujimoto - OSHI--
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Everyday when I wake up, I'm surprised to find that not only have I joined the military, but apparently I've been in the military for the past 7 months. How can this be?

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kurt - sad prinny
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So here at DLI, Airmen have something called an "I Love Me Sheet." I don't know if it's used on any other training bases or if it's just here. Basically, what it is, we list all the good things we've done, like volunteering or giving blood or being a leader. The more stuff you have, naturally, the better you look, and the better your Enlisted Performance Report looks.

As of tomorrow morning, I'll have 70 hours of designated driver service (50 hours gets you a letter of appreciation, 100 hours gets you a squadron coin), 25 hours of general volunteer service, blood donation, and two months as accountability airman. Not to mention my good grades in Chinese.

Monday will be the start of our 15th week. I downloaded this Chinese TV program, PPS, and I've been watching pretty much everything in English with Chinese subtitles. They have all kinds of anime and cartoons. I was watching the Spongebob movie last week. It's pretty awesome being able to read and understand about half of everything.

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fujimoto - something shiny
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My vocabulary is probably somewhere around 1000 characters already.

It's Chineasy!
jet - books are boring
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It's so weird when I see Chinese characters somewhere and I can read it already. I'm only in my 7th week of 63 weeks.
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fujimoto - not impressed
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Got myself a bamboo tablet in hopes that I'd get back into doodling.




Heading back to the good ol' DLI on Saturday morning. My visit home has been very relaxing, and I quickly got back into my old pre-military state of mind. The only motivation I have to return is to see some friends again and get back into Chinese. I'm sick of morning formations every day, commander's briefings every Friday, PT early Tuesday mornings and Wednesday and Thursday afternoons...

If I could just get up in the morning, eat breakfast, head to class, do PT during the breaks, then go back to my dorm and relax, I wouldn't have any problems. It's all the pointless time-wasting things they make us do during the day that upsets me. But that's the military I guess.

From what I heard of both of my grandfathers' experiences in the Air Force, I think they would've talked me out of it. I do like the Air Force, but I'm simply not a military person. The only things keeping me there are the languages and the paychecks.

This old ex-marine/army guy at the YMCA would always tell me to avoid negative people when I get in the military, but it seems like I'M the negative one. Everyone else somehow keeps their motivation up, but everything just brings me down. What's worse, I feel like a whiner. No one's told me I'm just whining and complaining and bitching, but I feel that way.
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jet - wut
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I love when I'm the only one that doesn't study AND I'm the only one that passes.


Except the teachers always ask me to tutor. Bah.

Sunday nights always make me hate my life.
roam - hero
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By the end of the week, I'm feeling pretty good. Why shouldn't I? I'm here at the DLI. Three months ago, this is exactly where I wanted to be. I'm doing what I wanted to do. I'm learning Chinese and I'm the top of my class. I don't mind wearing my ABUs, the food is actually pretty delicious, my dorm is comfy, I have all of my electronics (I bought myself a PS3 and a flat-screen TV) and I'm getting paid! I'm going to school for free, I'm getting my teeth fixed for free. Monterey, California is absolutely GORGEOUS, and the view from the post is amazing. The town has the same vibe as home. What more could I want?

But Sunday nights always trigger something. This feeling of hopelessness overwhelms me. I realize I'm going to be here for a year and a half, 3000 miles away from my family, waking up at an ungodly hour to make it to breakfast then formation every morning, forced to go to group PT to do push-ups and sit-ups and jog because I can't be trusted to do them on my own, constantly letting people know where I am and why I am and how I am, making sure absolutely everything is on-point and perfect lest I get yelled at by one of the sergeants.

And I only get to go home 2 weeks a year for Christmas.

My graduation date? March 22nd 2012.

There are days when I want out, when I google "how to get out of the military." But then I come to my senses and realize that I'd lose all of my benefits, I'd have to pay back my loans myself, I'd have to go find another job, I'd have to go to another college.

I'm stuck. And I don't know how to fix it.

Sunday nights are bad. Mondays are worse. Tuesdays are pretty bad too. Wednesday, things start to pick back up. The end of the week is paradise. Then it's Sunday night again.

Nothing has made me so bipolar as the military.

Anyway, have a latrine photo:


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fujimoto - something shiny
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So here I am on town pass in my parents' hotel room in San Antonio, TX.  I haven't been released from basic training yet.  I go straight from here to tech school at the Defense Language Institute in Monterey, CA to learn Chinese.  It's weird being in military mode then coming out here to the hotel and being all laid-back and then having to go back to military mode at night.  There's so much I need/want to do while I'm free, but there simply isn't enough time to do all of it, so I stress about it while I'm in the dorm unable to do anything about it.

I leave early Monday morning, so at least during transit I'll have a few hours of peace.  After that, I don't know.  I keep hearing different things about the DLI.  From some people I hear it's just like college, from others I hear it's more strict than basic.  I'm looking forward to finally getting to study Chinese, but at the same time, I really just want my free time back.  After 2 months of no video games, I'd like to try to play Pokemon White or Fallout 3 or something.  Jeez.  All I want is some free time, some time to relax.

Airman First-Class Lefever reports as ordered.
jet - ecstatic
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So what all did I miss in the past two months?

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fujimoto - something shiny
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Hey guys!

Just got the chance to use the net for a minute, so I thought I'd update real quick.

We're in our 4th week of basic training, so we're halfway through already!  It's pretty awesome right now.  The first two weeks sucked, but it's cool now.

Can't wait to talk to everyone again.  Will share graduation photos and junk!


So tired of hearing "What the piss, trainees?" xD
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